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mreeeeeh~
the little apartment that I mentioned in the last journal.. well we ended up not taking it.
It was just a horrible experiance.. and I'm just SO glad its over.
Now we just need to keep looking ( ;-; )

um but yeah~
something that just made it all better~~~
one of my favourite Lolita brands (been admiring their stuff for a loooong time ) has finally started shipping overseas! FREAKN YEAH!
I need a job. now.
[link]
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and to loose some weight. yesterday. ( )

also a few things that are deep.. and probably boring xD~ (but I'm hyper and want to 'talk' )
having lived in what felt like isolation for those years, coming back made me realize why you would want friends in the first place. Its actually something I don't think I could write in words, but its very important. (lesson of the day kids, is don't be crappy like me, but keep your friends close and in contact! )

Then, another thing that I still find funny to this day:
A while back I was just chilln' in the shower, washing my hair, thinking about nothing in particular, when this thought just popped into my head. It went exactly like this:
"I would rather be acknowledged than accepted."
...
daaaaaaaamn
wtf
but you know it was so right on and true that I just kind of stopped there and thought about it for a while. too true.

also, I noticed when it comes to creativity and the like I seem to preform better as a .. umm.. how to put.. conductor, director for others. Like they supply the initial energy and ideas and I guide it to a more refined state. At least I've noticed that when it comes to Luis and I. He's the water and I'm the irrigation that gets to where it needs to go without diluting or getting lost.

and then something less profound~ xD
I went to try and design a character that I would like to use (theoretically ) in the table top rpg Anima ( [link] )
and I automatically thought "Ice" and maybe "holy"
but then I stopped~
I mean, I really love those elements, and the ideas and feelings that go with them, but is it really -me-? If I existed in a world like that would I fall into some other category based on who I really am rather than what I find aesthetically pleasing? (knowing me I would do things the difficult way and go for something I wasn't meant for, but force it anyways )
so naturally, as we all do these days, I turned to the internet. In this case: Quizilla, and countless element quizzes. Tons of them where bad and predictable (aka I choose these answers and I get this element ) but some of them were well put together.
The overwhelming majority that I got was Earth, followed closely by Darkness (when it was pressent) with some water and air tossed in (one ice ;-; )
I -have- noticed a growing appreciation for all things green, and I -have- always loved flowers.. but when it comes to elemental earth I think rocks and dirt ._. boring... (waaaaa sad thing is I AM!! ;_; )


daaaamn I ate too many MeltyKisses.. SUGAR BUZZ
;_;
need a diet..